Well, the baby will be here in less than a week. Yesterday at my doctor's appointment, he said that while I wasn't dilated/effaced enough to induce now, basically no matter what we're going to induce next Monday. He'd still like it earlier if my body cooperates, so I'm getting checked again on Thursday to see if I've made any progress. The sad thing is I WAS making good progress with quite a few contractions and such until I was put on bedrest, and now everything has come to a halting stop. I might get a couple of good contractions a day, but not near as many as a week ago. Anywho, so I don't really think I'll be quite ready for a baby by my appointment on Thursday, but for SURE on Monday this little cutie is coming out!
While I'm wonderfully excited, I can also feel those moments of fear and anxiety creeping up. What the heck have I signed up for? My whole life is about to change, forever, I know it has, but there's not way I can know in how many ways... And w hat do I know about babies, anyway? Nothing! And so I find myself in the shower, utterly freaking out about what's about to happen.
And, lucky me, I get out of the shower, and I go whimper to Jordan, "Love, what have we done?!" And the strong, amazing man he is says, "Don't worry, we're going to be fine."
How lucky am I? Last night as I was laying in bed, I realized I have spent so many months and months anxiously worrying about Jordan getting a job, getting out of Provo, starting our "real lives," that I think I've missed one of the greatest, sweetest blessing in my life. Yes, it's hard not knowing our future, but for the next few weeks Jordan's going to be right by my side as I try to figure out this newborn baby thing. We don't have to worry about vacation days, or getting back to classes (if he was going to school...), and we don't have to worry about a move and not knowing those around us. As I'm facing childbirth and a new baby in the face, not having a job might be one of the best things that's ever happened, at least for now. I get the constant companionship of Jordan through these next stressful, exhausting weeks.
Of course, we still want a job, and the catch is that we are poor... but even that has been taken care of for us. Just last week, Jordan's work he does in Provo (which has been a little bit slow as of late) picked up in a big way and he'll be able to work from home and make some pretty good money for the next month or so. And even while I'm saying "Yay, Jordan doesn't have a job!" we have two really great job leads that are really promising. We've been taken care of in every way possible.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Bedrest...
That's the new official declaration by my doctor. It's been a really rough month of being pregnant: the flu, then a nasty cough, then some miserable back pain due to the cough (went to the chiropractor about that...), the flu again, then to the hospital because of suspected pre-eclampsia. And, after today, no more running errands.
The hospital trip was yesterday when my flu-like symptoms made me a bit suspicious there could be something more going on. I was also unusually swollen, without doing much walking around and I also had some really sudden weight gain (which has NOT been typical of my pregnancy), this combined with the fact that my blood pressure has been elevated since about week 20 made me worry that it could be pre-eclampsia. So we headed to the hospital on the advice of our brother-in-law doctor Bed (we love you Ben!), just to make sure everything was ok. After a series of tests, they went ahead and told me I could go home, but I had to take it easy and run some MORE tests, and see my Doctor on Tuesday.
Well, my Doctor got the hospital reports back this morning and decided it was necessary to see me today, to officially diagnose me with mild pre-eclampsia, tell me not to move around, that I have to take my blood pressure 4 times a day, and try to keep this baby in me for at least another week.
The good news is that bed rest doesn't mess me up too bad, since I basically hang around the house all day anyway. And since I'm full-term, I'm totally ok with this baby coming sooner rather than later, so I don't have much to complain about. Well, all the tests they made me take have not been a joy ride, but I'm happy to say I think this whole pregnancy thing should wrap up in the next two weeks! WOOHOO! I'm so excited to meet this little person!
Any bets yet on if it's a boy or girl?
The hospital trip was yesterday when my flu-like symptoms made me a bit suspicious there could be something more going on. I was also unusually swollen, without doing much walking around and I also had some really sudden weight gain (which has NOT been typical of my pregnancy), this combined with the fact that my blood pressure has been elevated since about week 20 made me worry that it could be pre-eclampsia. So we headed to the hospital on the advice of our brother-in-law doctor Bed (we love you Ben!), just to make sure everything was ok. After a series of tests, they went ahead and told me I could go home, but I had to take it easy and run some MORE tests, and see my Doctor on Tuesday.
Well, my Doctor got the hospital reports back this morning and decided it was necessary to see me today, to officially diagnose me with mild pre-eclampsia, tell me not to move around, that I have to take my blood pressure 4 times a day, and try to keep this baby in me for at least another week.
The good news is that bed rest doesn't mess me up too bad, since I basically hang around the house all day anyway. And since I'm full-term, I'm totally ok with this baby coming sooner rather than later, so I don't have much to complain about. Well, all the tests they made me take have not been a joy ride, but I'm happy to say I think this whole pregnancy thing should wrap up in the next two weeks! WOOHOO! I'm so excited to meet this little person!
Any bets yet on if it's a boy or girl?
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Tender Mercies
So, many people know that Jordan and I have anxiously been waiting to hear back about this job in Boston. It's a great opportunity, Jordan liked the people, the interview went really well, and we were very, very hopeful. Today, however, we got a really disappointing "no" from them. For me, at least, this was pretty heartbreaking. It doesn't help that I'm 9 months pregnant and my hormones are all over the place, but I was pretty torn up about it. I was really trying to be strong for Jordan (and failing miserably), but Jordan was amazing. He was telling me that while he was disappointed, he certainly didn't feel the situation was hopeless. He felt good about other prospects and was prepared to keep working hard on applications. So, in the hour after we get the news, we're sitting together, me crying, Jordan consoling and both of us trying to figure out our next step, when the phone suddenly rings.
Jordan jokes, "Ha Ha, that'll be this company again..." when he looks at the number and realizes it's an East Coast number. To our astonishment, it's The Hartford, calling for an interview! They give a quick interview, explaining that they have a couple of openings available and Jordan was on their short list of possible candidates. In the end, they tell us that they'll give us a call in a few days to either schedule further phone interviews or a possible on-site interview.
Here's what's amazing about this: it's been MONTHS since any company has contacted us. MONTHS. Even more so, we had been trying to get a hold of the Hartford specifically for months as well. We started an application with them back in November, got turned down for a job in March, and when we were in Connecticut a few weeks ago, tried to get another interview. At that point they told us they were just going to hire out of their interns. And then, just an hour after we get a heartbreaking no from the Boston company, we get a call with another very hopeful (and very unexpected) lead!
As Jordan was on the phone, I couldn't help but say a prayer of thanks to Heavenly Father (and then I proceeded to cry some more, because that's what I do...). I know that the timing of the calls was not an accident. We are being watched and taken care of; Heavenly Father is very mindful of us and our situation. It reminded us that although things may be discouraging now, that eventually, somewhere out there, is the right job for us, and we shouldn't give up. He knows ME, He knows how afraid and scared I am, with a baby coming shortly and limited income, He knows how to tell me that He is still in charge, that we have not been forgotten.
This job may not be the job (although it is a pretty awesome opportunity), but today I am so grateful for Tender Mercies from the Lord. We will continue to work at these job applications as hard as we can, and trusting that there is a plan for us. That is not to say everything from here on out will be easy, because I know it won't, but I can rest assured that Jordan and I are not alone.
Jordan jokes, "Ha Ha, that'll be this company again..." when he looks at the number and realizes it's an East Coast number. To our astonishment, it's The Hartford, calling for an interview! They give a quick interview, explaining that they have a couple of openings available and Jordan was on their short list of possible candidates. In the end, they tell us that they'll give us a call in a few days to either schedule further phone interviews or a possible on-site interview.
Here's what's amazing about this: it's been MONTHS since any company has contacted us. MONTHS. Even more so, we had been trying to get a hold of the Hartford specifically for months as well. We started an application with them back in November, got turned down for a job in March, and when we were in Connecticut a few weeks ago, tried to get another interview. At that point they told us they were just going to hire out of their interns. And then, just an hour after we get a heartbreaking no from the Boston company, we get a call with another very hopeful (and very unexpected) lead!
As Jordan was on the phone, I couldn't help but say a prayer of thanks to Heavenly Father (and then I proceeded to cry some more, because that's what I do...). I know that the timing of the calls was not an accident. We are being watched and taken care of; Heavenly Father is very mindful of us and our situation. It reminded us that although things may be discouraging now, that eventually, somewhere out there, is the right job for us, and we shouldn't give up. He knows ME, He knows how afraid and scared I am, with a baby coming shortly and limited income, He knows how to tell me that He is still in charge, that we have not been forgotten.
This job may not be the job (although it is a pretty awesome opportunity), but today I am so grateful for Tender Mercies from the Lord. We will continue to work at these job applications as hard as we can, and trusting that there is a plan for us. That is not to say everything from here on out will be easy, because I know it won't, but I can rest assured that Jordan and I are not alone.
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