Sunday, July 18, 2010

We love you, Grandpa Hull!

Back in July we spent a couple of days up in Roy when Grandpa Hull died. He was 94 years old, and Jordan and I had been visiting him on a pretty regular basis, about once a semester. Every time we would go, he would make some funny joke about this being the last time we saw him. For instance, "I don't buy green bananas anymore..." One of our personal favorite conversations goes like this:

Jordan's Dad: "So! You turned 94! How doe it feel?"
Grandpa Hull: "Well, I wouldn't want to do it again..."

Ultimately, this was a great man of faith who loved his family and longed to be with his deceased wife. It's hard to be super sad at a funeral under these conditions. It was so lovely to reminisce on his life, and to know it was truly a good one.

Jordan had a ton of family come in for the funeral: Dad and Courtney from AK, Megan and her two oldest girls from Missouri, and Mandy and Casey and their family drove from Missouri. We all stayed with Aunt Kay in Roy for the couple of days leading up to the funeral. We had a great time! We got to go through Dad's memory lane and see all the places he went to school and played football, etc. The Sunday afterward, we enjoyed a fantastic dinner at Aunt Kit's where I got to meet more of Jordan's Thompson side of the family. Mandy and Casey stayed until the next Friday, so just played and played and played.

For me, this has been a great summer filled with lots of family, which I am grateful for. Heavenly Father is really looking out for me. If no one was coming to visit and such, I would just be a fat pregnant lady stuck in my apartment watching House... but instead, I've had the great opprotunity to spend a lot of time with the people I love!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Wilson Familiy Reunion

Yesterday Jordan and I made an appearance at my maternal grandma's family reunion. Growing up in Alaska, I hardly ever went to any family reunions, although I attended this one about 10 years ago when I was 14. It was so fun! I'm so lucky to be related to such great, faithful people. Jordan and I had a lot of fun looking at my family tree and trying to see if we're distantly related (I know that seems weird, but it seems like it would be weird if we WEREN'T related in some distant way. Both families are old Mormon pioneer families who settled in the Ogden area...).

There's a lot of people who I had heard of, who I may have met once or twice, that I'd seen pictures of that I got to talk to, which I really enjoyed. One of my favorite moments was when my Grandma and her sisters were talking about their father, who died when my Grandma was just 6 years old. They were all very young when their father passed away, but their memories were precious and sweet, and reminded me how I feel and remember my own late father. They talked about how even though they were very small (7 years and younger), they remembered him playing with them, and killing snakes to protect them when they were outside. It was these simple memories that they clung to and remembered how much their father loved them, even though he left this world when they were so young. Mostly, I was just struck about what an effect a man could have on their lives to be remembered so many years later.

I found myself contemplating Fatherhood. Who would my own father, who died 12 years ago, be to my child? I hope I can describe the incalculable love I felt from him, and how both his life and his death shaped my life. I also hope that I can express how sometimes really hard, inexplicable things happen, but you can be happy. As I grew up, Heavenly Father sent other men into my life who helped me and loved me, even though my own father couldn't be there. I guess more than anything I want to be able to express to my children that I don't feel I was handicapped by his absence, but ultimately I am happier because of it. And that Heavenly Father will always take care of us and fulfill our needs when we have faith.

Jordan is such a good father, already. I know we aren't yet holding our baby in our arms, but I am continually impressed with his commitment to our livelihood and safety. I can sense his excitement, and that brings me such joy. I am lucky that he married me, and that we can have such a beautiful life together. And I can't wait to meet this little baby!