So, conference came at a good time for us, for we certainly are facing a big darkness in our lives that seems... not hopeless, but frustrating. To our credit, I think we're taking it quite well!
As the post says, life can be a bit frightening sometimes. We got a no from the Salt Lake job, and we're back to throwing out applications in hopes someone pays attention. The good news is that we have some potentional leads, and its hardly hopeless. And like I said, we really feel like we're taking things in stride! We hope to stay in Provo for as long as Jordan's current job allows, keeping our spirits up by planning all the fun things we can do without a job commitment (and limited funds). Since I'm expecting, we've decided against Disneyland, but maybe a trip to Yellowstone is in order? I think so.
Jordan graduated this week (yay Jordan!!!), and we enjoyed a visit from his Dad. It was tons of fun! My favorite was Friday when we went to How to Train a Dragon and then dinner at Macaroni Grill (A+ for both things). I'm so proud of Jordan for all he's done and how hard he's worked. And continues to work for our family!
I've got a couple more weeks left. Saturday is my grad recital (I've been having bad dreams... I hope it's done soon!), and then all I have left is my final oral exam... which... I'm not totally sure what's on that... *cough* I hope to find out soon...? We'll see.
Last week I took my first oral exam, the Repertoire Exam. This proved to be a very... interesting experience. See, I wasn't totally sure what to expect. I've never taken an oral exam, and I hadn't taken a repertoire class, so I was really nervous about what I would be expected to know. That was compounded with the fact that one of the test givers is a professor that I've been having trouble with. The morning of my exam, I made the mistake of reading how he didn't pass my big paper and all the things wrong with it, and I started to freak myself out.
About 45 minutes before my exam, I just started weeping. I was so tired (couldn't sleep because I was nervous about the exam), still quite morning sick, nervous about facing this specific professor (he just told me my paper was bad!), and so scared that I just couldn't stop crying. I drove to school crying in the car. I managed to pull it together enough to get a jamba juice (good for the morning sickness) and continue studying outside the exam room. When the professors walked up, I lost it again. I went into the bathroom still weeping... and I just couldn't stop! My teacher was pretty concerned, and eventually I realized I just had to do it or else I was going to sit in that bathroom for the whole 2 hours of the exam. I managed to calm myself enough to walk in the room, only to lose it again during the opening prayer. At this point, both professors were really questioning my sanity. I'm sure they were rolling their eyes thinking, "Crazy pregnant lady..." We decided if I started sobbing beyond the point of speech we would call a recess and try again later. Finally I heard the first question, a ton of ideas flooded into my head, and as I was answering the question (which, no joke, took an hour and fifteen minutes to answer just the first question) I stopped crying and everything was fine.
But YEESH! This was supposed to be a pretty profession exam... like, I was dressed up and my hair was done (thankfully I was smart enough not to wear makeup... THAT would have been so so pathetic). An oral exam for my masters degree! And I couldn't stop crying! Anyway, the best news is that despite my tears (or possibly because... I don't think so, but who would want to deal with me again?) I PASSED! I mean, students usually pass... but with reservations (like they have to do something in addition to prove their knowledge of a topic). I just passed! WOOHOO!
The other funny thing that happened to me about a week and half ago was I fell in the parking lot of the HFAC, hurting my foot enough that I needed x-rays. I was fine, but for a couple days I was on crutches. But really, what's more pathetic than a pregnant lady on crutches? Jordan joked that if I had car troubles, every car on the road would pull over to help me... there's just nothing quite as sad as that.
Anywho, life is still complicated and requires so much work, but we're happy and working hard and ready for the next phase of life!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Pregnancy is funny...
I have looked forward to pregnancy my whole life, because I was quite curious as to how it would affect me. I've watched many people be pregnant, and it seems there's always a couple of really funny little quirks that come out. I won't lie, I was hoping to be pregnant like my mom: hardly ever nauseous, generally happier and more relaxed, and always glowing. My mom was a lovely glowing pregnant lady (I swear pregnancy has had an subtraction effect on her aging process: as she gets older, she starts looking younger...).
Sadly, no such luck for me.
My morning sickness kicked in a little later than usual, but kick in it did! Woo! I was NOT expecting that. Um, so here's a "short" list of things I've found to be very strange about me being pregnant...
1. I know I used to like food. I know I did. I loved food! I have 50 pounds of extra weight to prove that I liked food! But, alas, the joy is now lost on me. I look at bowl of ice cream, and all I feel is nausea. That pizza: man, I remember it tasting good, I really do... but yuck! The best example of this was my birthday. I'm super picky about my cakes, and I really wanted a "Sam's Club" cake. It was beautiful! Lovely mint green, perfect amount of frosting... yeah, I ate half a piece. Then that cake sat in our fridge for THREE WEEKS. I didn't touch a single bit of it. That's not will-power, people, that's revulsion. It was so sad...
2. I have "food fantasies." I rarely get really strong cravings, but when I do, it's like a commercial playing in my head. The first one was tater-tots. I thought about those tater-tots... obsessed about their salty goodness, imagined myself biting into the crispy outer layer, and enjoying the warm toasty inside... after a couple of days, I finally gave in. And I haven't eaten tater-tots since then. It wasn't a bad experience, I just now gag at the thought of them. So far, this has happened with Chilis chips and salsa, laffy-taffy, hostess fruit pies, turkey dinner, and plain white rice.
3. I have the most powerful gag reflex EVER. If you think just swallowing pills is bad, I can hardly brush my teeth!
4. Surprising benefit: I have been far too queasy to do the dishes! Jordan's a total stud about it too... the last two months he's been pretty much the only one doing them. I tried a couple of days ago, and, well, lets just say it ended badly. Something about little bits of food floating in a sink... *shudder*
5. Fun Fact! When you vomit really violently, you break capillaries in your face! I've had this happen at least twice so far! Good times! (*please note sarcasm*)
6. The best part of pregnancy is all the sleep! I LOVE SLEEP! And now I can do it as much as I want! Last month, Jordan finally gave in and said, "Amanda, I'm going to offically stop bugging you about how much you sleep. Sleep whenever you want."* Oh, man, am I taking this to town! I sleep about 10 hours at night, plus if I can work it in, a nap at 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
*Side note: Since we've been married, Jordan's been very concerned about my sleeping habits. No, I don't stay up till 2am or anything, I just sleep. A lot. His favorite line is: "Too much sleep is just as bad as not enough sleep." Psh. Whatev. Sleep's the best.
7. I tend to have actual morning morning sickness. For sure, in the mornings it's the worst for me. Trying to get food in my tummy after it's empty is so not fun.
I can't say pregnancy has been kind to me... I also can't say I've enjoyed it much so far. For the first little bit I was concerned, because I wasn't even sure if there was a baby in there! Maybe I was so sick for nothing! But after last week, when we heard the heartbeat, I've felt very assured that even though everyday I'm spewing my guts out, I'm going to get a cute little baby out of it in the end... :)
Sadly, no such luck for me.
My morning sickness kicked in a little later than usual, but kick in it did! Woo! I was NOT expecting that. Um, so here's a "short" list of things I've found to be very strange about me being pregnant...
1. I know I used to like food. I know I did. I loved food! I have 50 pounds of extra weight to prove that I liked food! But, alas, the joy is now lost on me. I look at bowl of ice cream, and all I feel is nausea. That pizza: man, I remember it tasting good, I really do... but yuck! The best example of this was my birthday. I'm super picky about my cakes, and I really wanted a "Sam's Club" cake. It was beautiful! Lovely mint green, perfect amount of frosting... yeah, I ate half a piece. Then that cake sat in our fridge for THREE WEEKS. I didn't touch a single bit of it. That's not will-power, people, that's revulsion. It was so sad...
2. I have "food fantasies." I rarely get really strong cravings, but when I do, it's like a commercial playing in my head. The first one was tater-tots. I thought about those tater-tots... obsessed about their salty goodness, imagined myself biting into the crispy outer layer, and enjoying the warm toasty inside... after a couple of days, I finally gave in. And I haven't eaten tater-tots since then. It wasn't a bad experience, I just now gag at the thought of them. So far, this has happened with Chilis chips and salsa, laffy-taffy, hostess fruit pies, turkey dinner, and plain white rice.
3. I have the most powerful gag reflex EVER. If you think just swallowing pills is bad, I can hardly brush my teeth!
4. Surprising benefit: I have been far too queasy to do the dishes! Jordan's a total stud about it too... the last two months he's been pretty much the only one doing them. I tried a couple of days ago, and, well, lets just say it ended badly. Something about little bits of food floating in a sink... *shudder*
5. Fun Fact! When you vomit really violently, you break capillaries in your face! I've had this happen at least twice so far! Good times! (*please note sarcasm*)
6. The best part of pregnancy is all the sleep! I LOVE SLEEP! And now I can do it as much as I want! Last month, Jordan finally gave in and said, "Amanda, I'm going to offically stop bugging you about how much you sleep. Sleep whenever you want."* Oh, man, am I taking this to town! I sleep about 10 hours at night, plus if I can work it in, a nap at 2 or 3 in the afternoon.
*Side note: Since we've been married, Jordan's been very concerned about my sleeping habits. No, I don't stay up till 2am or anything, I just sleep. A lot. His favorite line is: "Too much sleep is just as bad as not enough sleep." Psh. Whatev. Sleep's the best.
7. I tend to have actual morning morning sickness. For sure, in the mornings it's the worst for me. Trying to get food in my tummy after it's empty is so not fun.
I can't say pregnancy has been kind to me... I also can't say I've enjoyed it much so far. For the first little bit I was concerned, because I wasn't even sure if there was a baby in there! Maybe I was so sick for nothing! But after last week, when we heard the heartbeat, I've felt very assured that even though everyday I'm spewing my guts out, I'm going to get a cute little baby out of it in the end... :)
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